Holy Buns, Batman!

I found this dvd I stole from my mom forever ago. I never had actually seen it yet, though. All it said was, Zumba, Thighs, Buns and Abs. Sweet! I've been needing to mix up my cardio. So I pop this sucker in and half of the video is wasted on translating for English and Spanish. Seriously took up so much time. Not everything needs to be explained. Once I see you start doing something, I'll follow. 

Anyways! Here I am waiting for them to pick it up and actually start moving. I never even stood. I also have NEVER felt my butt be as sore as it has been the past 2 days. The thing is, I've done squats, but never really felt anything. I figure I'm still doing them wrong, but there's something so uncomfortable feeling about doing them, that I never pushed it.

Let me explain. I just recently went to the chiropractor, which was a year overdue. My left leg has been significantly longer than my right for awhile now. So, anytime I would do squats, elbow knees, or mountain climbers, it was just uncomfortable, but not unbearable. I would still rather do the other two instead of squats, though. Mostly because I can never feel it doing anything and I was never really sore from it. 

Back to this lying "Zumba" video. I'm addicted, but also sad. Sad because it's so flippin hard!! But how can you reject what you actually feel working?? So that has been my butt kicker lately. Hehe...see what I did there? Oh man. That was bad. I need coffee.

I keep going back and forth on whether I can actually see progress. I definitely feel better, I would just like to see it more. Maybe it's time for more Skinny Tea of some sort to help lessen any bloating.

Oh! I haven't taken Phentermine for the last 4 days! I stopped so that I could relieve the constipation, but I do still have a months supply. I'm panning on using it over the next couple months and then be done. That makes me happy :)

I finally got a Ninja Master Prep that I'm super excited about because I can finally make some healthy ice cream just in time for Spring and Summer! I'll also be using it to make my Fit Girl Fraps, holla! 

In the same Amazon box, I got some Natural Calm, too, which I tried at my moms while we visited. It helps with a lot of different things, so I'm really excited to use it regularly now.

I think that's all for now.

My stats:

SW:195

CW:178

GW:Happy and Healthy

LOL. I was going to post a picture of what I'm most proud of, which is that you can totally see the muscles in my arms. Well, I tried taking a picture, and you can totally NOT tell that I have muscles in my arms, hahaha. I laugh because I have to. They're there, my camera just can't see them!

Like a Beast

I don't know what it is, but I've been feeling super positive about all of this for the past couple days. I keep telling Ninja how excited I am to see my 4 week progress because I KNOW I'm going to stick to this, like it's not even a question, and that of course I'm going to like seeing results so I'm just gonna keep doing the challenge and that after a few months I could actually wear a sun dress that shows my arms this summer! Whaaaaat! <insert hands over mouth monkey emoji here>

So here I am all on this positivity high making dinner that I just was NOT feelin. Ate most of it begrudgingly, but even then it was light. So come 9:30pm tonight, both Ninja and I are hungry for a snack, which in my mind is a juicy flippin burger from Main Street. Oh man. Well, we're about to go somewhere for a snack and I told him he could choose the place and that I'd just pick the healthiest thing on the menu. He chooses Jack in the Crack. Of course. So I see they have this chicken pita thing that I was going to order, but then Ninja orders egg rolls. (MY egg rolls!!) So I decided I wanted nothing. I didn't want to order anything if I couldn't have what I wanted. Well he ended up with an extra egg roll which I claimed. Yes, I know. We get home. I go into the kitchen and make myself half a pita with turkey meat, lettuce and mozzarella cheese. Didn't even go near his food. I was so proud of myself!

Fast forward to post digestion, and I start my workout which is all cardio today. Did my cardio, added in some squats and push ups, AND, I did the WHOLE Pilates alphabet for the first time ever. 

Like. A. Beast.

Vacation

We're on the plane right now, so I'll publish this when I remember tomorrow. Our little trip was nice. Most definitely too short. We didn't get to spend nearly as much time with friends as we had hoped. Ninja was in a funk at the start of the trip and I was in a funk toward the end. Either way, the time with my mom was so needed. I really really miss her. I won't get to see her until she visits in July, so the wait is gonna be hard. 

We got to build a little table for her front porch. She wanted something to put her coffee on when she sits out in the morning. It was a fun little project. My niece helped me paint it. She's my moms little helper.

We didn't go overboard on food, well, Ninja did a bit, haha. I tried not to overindulge, and it worked. :)

I enjoyed whatever we ate, but I limited a lot. Took my before pictures yesterday for the 3/16 Fit Girls challenge. I even bought workout shorts specifically for them, but now I have something that I can work toward wearing for a jog in public. Some day. :)

I don't feel crazy excited or motivated, though. I'm sure it's because I have so many other feelings taking priority right now. Hoping that changes as soon as we get back into routine at home. I'm sure it will. 

I need to work at taking more food pictures during the challenge and putting forth effort to make them look pretty. So that's my little personal challenge, too. I also haven't made my goal heart yet. Maybe I can do it at work tomorrow. I keep wanting to buy jeans or a dress or something to work toward getting into, but I also don't want to aim toward conforming to a specific piece of clothing. Not sure if that makes any sense. I'd rather get to a point where I'm proud of my progress, and then reward myself and go out and buy something that fits me in that moment. Otherwise, I feel like I'd be disappointed if I do a couple rounds of the challenge and still not see the progress I envisioned at the moment of purchasing said clothing. So I shall decide on my reward when the time comes! I'll just call it my surprise. :)

I'm glad so many of my friends are trying to be health/fitness conscious too. It helps a ton. 

Well, I guess that's all for now.

Trudging On

I haven't worked out for the past 2 days because Ninja (hubby) and I have been gaming late.

So I for sure have to tomorrow, since it'll be day 3.

Finally tried out the Cauliflower Alfredo sauce and it's most definitely yummy!

It's so much more creamy than I expected. Ninja loved it, too! I added the Parmesan cheese for flavor.

What's nice is one batch is enough for dinner and leftovers. You can find the link at the bottom.

Today was my last day on my SkinnyMint Teatox. Sadness. I'm really gonna have to up my 

fiber intake. I'm definitely going to look into another one, though. I love never feeling bloated.

Ninja and I leave for California on Wednesday. I'll have to take my before pictures while on vacation, which will hopefully keep my mind on staying on track! I'm so excited to see my family and friends. We just need to not celebrate all of the excitement with food and drinks. Just some of the excitement. ;-)

Anyways, that is all for now! 

Cauliflower Alfredo Sauce recipe: click here!

Before Pictures

Sorry it took so long! I ended up posting them on Instagram that day and totally forgot about posting them here.

First off, I cheated a bit. I wore high waisted pants, so the pictures are a bit deceiving. I also flexed for the arm picture and didn't think that I probably shouldn't have. Well, I should've taken pictures of them both ways. Either way, I'm taking more "before" pictures next week for the new Fit Girl Challenge. 

I went out for drinks after work yesterday, and had 2 drinks. The first drink made my head hurt a bit, and someone had a strong perfume on, so I had a full on headache. It was one of those outings, though, where I didn't really know everyone that well. I've been trying to be more social, but it's been hard for some reason. 

I hate to think of myself this way, but I've developed some sort of separation/social anxiety. It has happened a few times since being here. I'll get excited for a party or outing and get all dressed up, but then walking toward the door of destination, I get super anxious and have a strong desire to go home. But, I force myself to go in, make small talk, smile, and then it happens. I get super emotional and nervous and have to leave or I'll start crying. I have no idea why. Yesterday, I didn't have hubby with me, so I stuck it out but wanted to leave so bad. I left before the second stop. I had a few blocks to walk to my car, and it's like I couldn't get there fast enough. I was trying not to cry. Called my guy and as I'm trying to talk, it was there, welling up in my throat. Drove home as fast and safely as possible, crying. I get home, change and just lay in bed. Hubby comes in and the tears come again. He was what I needed. Not sure what's going on there, but I hope it gets better.

Finally calmed down aaaand neither of us had eaten dinner, but I still had a headache and he doesn't cook. So...yes...I had a cheat meal. Went to Jack in the Box and I got egg rolls and cheesecake. 

Not gonna lie, it was divine in all of its crunchy glory. I love their egg rolls. So needless to say, I didn't work out either. 

Woke up today, weighed myself and it read 180.8. I got off really quick and looked at the scale suspiciously, like it had done something wrong. I shouldn't be surprised, though. When I'm doing well, have a random cheat meal, I usually still lose, even if just a few ounces. This does wonders for my sanity. I do have to realize my limitations. That only happens when it's ONE cheat meal, not a whole weekend.

Was back at it today, and just finished my workout about a half hour ago. It went really well. I've been doing the Pilates alphabet after my workout, before my stretching. I got the furthest I've ever been today. I got to R!! If you haven't done it before, do yourself a favor and try it out. Click here to check it out. 

Ok! 

Stats:

SW:195

CW:180.8

GW:140

Picture time. :-S

Blogging helps.

Alright, I've had my doubts about blogging. Especially since there's MAYBE 2 people that actually read it, but!, I was on my way home yesterday from work, totally tired, and did NOT feel like cooking. I wanted junk. I was trying to justify driving through somewhere just this once, and do you know what I thought of? How if I did that, I'd have to write about it in my blog. Not only did I not want to let down my 2 readers, but I didn't want this to be another fitness and health journal that I end up looking back at and ripping the pages out, feeling disappointed.

I seriously love the Fit Girl online community. It's so awesome to see that so many other girls are going through it, too. The pain, the gain, the food, the victories, it's all so encouraging. I came across one particular fit girls page who inspired me. She posted her "before" pictures, but you could tell it was very difficult for her to do. The reason she said she could post them, was because she KNEW she was going to get better. I love that, it was so empowering to see someone post pictures of what they are insecure about. Why can't I do that? Uhh...because I'm scared! The thought horrifies me. But wait, I CAN do it...I was just choosing not to. I was letting my fear overcome me. I don't want to be that person. Thank you @fitgirl.jiiittt!

So to go along with that, I will be posting some current "before" pictures, as soon as I buy some workout shorts. I suppose I could do my workout pants, you just don't see the progress as clearly. Hmm... I'll do both, because I KNOW there will be progress, however big or small, due to trying my best. 

Pictures to come later today :-D :-( :-S :-/ :-)

Now that's more like it!

I'm finally starting to feel better. Still coughing and blowing my nose but not nearly as much and I'm not as stuffy.

I did like I said and got back on track yesterday. Ate good, and oh my gosh I worked out!! It was pathetic, though. I did my warm up song, did my circuit training as best I could, and could only do 1 song of cardio before I cooled down with stretching. I was done for. My poor muscles had just dwindled down and my lungs felt like they were doing their job for 3 people at once. I felt pretty crummy afterward, but it was nice to hear husband talking me up. 

Definitely helps me to want to keep going, yet again.

I need to get back into food. Being creative with veggies and such. Well, I have 1 week before we visit the fam bam. I'm determined to do well this week, with food and my workouts. 

Alright! My stats:

SW:195

CW:183.2

GW:140

More like one more fat girl

Bleeggghhhfkndknwknjfeijef!

This cold TOTALLY screwed me up. My Phentermine hasn't even worked since I've been sick so I've just been eating like a cow. Doesn't help that I've also come upon that time of the month. Haven't been able to work out either because this cough has taken over my lungs. I'm so bummed, guys. 

I just want to feel better and get back on the wagon.

I'm "planning" to start again today, so we'll see if my will power is stronger than Miss Flow and Sir Douche Cold. I just hate thinking that all of my trying was for nothing. Sadness.

Okay, so I wrote all of that ^ last night and saved as a draft so I could publish it this morning.
I do feel a bit more positive today. Well, more motivated anyway. I weighed myself this morning, which was rough. I know it's not super accurate, just because I'm right in the middle of my period. Aaaanyways.

Here are my stats:
SW: 195
CW: 185.2
GW: 140