Catch up

As in...this will be a catch up for you since I haven't posted in awhile. 

I've been in a major funk lately. I've had some so not fit girl foods, and skipped about 4 workouts. Not in a row, though. I don't know what it is. Maybe hormones. All I know is I hate it. I don't want to slip back into apathy. I tend to have unrealistic expectations for myself, so when those aren't met in a short amount of time, I get discouraged and frustrated. Trying to find something to spark my motivation again has been difficult. I thought maybe some nice Nikes, since I've never had nice tennis shoes, (yes, tennis shoes), but I only workout inside on carpet and don't really need shoes. 

We're moving in less than 2 weeks, which is whole different stressful story, but we'll be super close to some friends of ours and they said we could borrow their dogs anytime we wanted. So, I've decided to get up before work, and take them on a long walk. Something active, but not a real "workout". That means I will actually need some nice shoes! 

Here's the deal, though: I just typed that all excitedly, and the feeling passed a second later. Eh. I'm just not excited anymore about it. I've been trying really really hard to push through this, and I am to an extent. Eating healthy again and working out, mostly because of routine and because I don't want to lose momentum for when I'm actually motivated again.

What motivates YOU, my 2 readers? Seriously, I wanna know.

I think it's that by the time I get home from work, I don't feel like making dinner, letting it digest enough, and then go workout, then shower, dry my hair, etc. I'm tired of the same thing every single day. What do I doooo?

Haha, I sat down to write this and totally planned on being super positive, and then this is what comes out. The truth will set you free! Haha...dunno where that came from. It was super dramatic in my head, too.

Stats:

SW:195

CW:177

GW: Happy.

Holy Buns, Batman!

I found this dvd I stole from my mom forever ago. I never had actually seen it yet, though. All it said was, Zumba, Thighs, Buns and Abs. Sweet! I've been needing to mix up my cardio. So I pop this sucker in and half of the video is wasted on translating for English and Spanish. Seriously took up so much time. Not everything needs to be explained. Once I see you start doing something, I'll follow. 

Anyways! Here I am waiting for them to pick it up and actually start moving. I never even stood. I also have NEVER felt my butt be as sore as it has been the past 2 days. The thing is, I've done squats, but never really felt anything. I figure I'm still doing them wrong, but there's something so uncomfortable feeling about doing them, that I never pushed it.

Let me explain. I just recently went to the chiropractor, which was a year overdue. My left leg has been significantly longer than my right for awhile now. So, anytime I would do squats, elbow knees, or mountain climbers, it was just uncomfortable, but not unbearable. I would still rather do the other two instead of squats, though. Mostly because I can never feel it doing anything and I was never really sore from it. 

Back to this lying "Zumba" video. I'm addicted, but also sad. Sad because it's so flippin hard!! But how can you reject what you actually feel working?? So that has been my butt kicker lately. Hehe...see what I did there? Oh man. That was bad. I need coffee.

I keep going back and forth on whether I can actually see progress. I definitely feel better, I would just like to see it more. Maybe it's time for more Skinny Tea of some sort to help lessen any bloating.

Oh! I haven't taken Phentermine for the last 4 days! I stopped so that I could relieve the constipation, but I do still have a months supply. I'm panning on using it over the next couple months and then be done. That makes me happy :)

I finally got a Ninja Master Prep that I'm super excited about because I can finally make some healthy ice cream just in time for Spring and Summer! I'll also be using it to make my Fit Girl Fraps, holla! 

In the same Amazon box, I got some Natural Calm, too, which I tried at my moms while we visited. It helps with a lot of different things, so I'm really excited to use it regularly now.

I think that's all for now.

My stats:

SW:195

CW:178

GW:Happy and Healthy

LOL. I was going to post a picture of what I'm most proud of, which is that you can totally see the muscles in my arms. Well, I tried taking a picture, and you can totally NOT tell that I have muscles in my arms, hahaha. I laugh because I have to. They're there, my camera just can't see them!

Semi Impending Doom

So I've been crazy busy the last few days cleaning the house and doing laundry and getting our rooms ready so with that came being really tired and having no time to work out. I hadn't worked out for 2 days and here I was going on 3. (Side note:I've been fighting off a cold for a week.) Well, last night, even after tons of cleaning and laundry and making dinner, I got my butt to work out at 11pm. I always keep that rule in mind: Never go 3 days without working out. Wellll let me tell ya why, even after not working out for 2 days, last night was ROUGH. Here I thought I was doing so well with my thigh/butt muscle gain...ha! I felt it, guys...pretty bad. But! I did it, finished, and felt great after.

Now, here is why there may be impending doom upon me: my family is coming to visit this weekend. My mom, sister, aunt, and 2 friends are flying in this evening and I'm not sure how well I will fare.

Hubby eats to live, he doesn't enjoy it like I do, so I don't get to enjoy my food WITH someone. But my family, we love it, together. Not to mention my mom is the Yoda of cooking. Yeah, I went there.

Now here's the deal, I could take my Phentermine, and I most likely won't over indulge. I just haven't decided if I want to or not. Plus! We already have reservations at the BEST place for brunch. Seriously, I mentioned the name of this restaurant at a party and the first thing someone said, "that bacon, though." Yeah. That bacon. It's got this red pepper honey glaze stickiness and is to die for. Did I mention this place is a buffet? 😔 Impending doom.

I'm not even sure if I'll be able to work out while they're here, either. Hopefully we do something active, like go for a bike ride or go ride horses. I'm really gonna do my best, guys. Really. I'll let you know how it goes. I don't want to lose sight of the big picture. I want to feel great and look how I feel! I can do that. I can.

Onto another subject! Brownies!...oh wait, that's still food. Well I mean, look at the name of my blog. Geez. So, ahem! Brownies! Hubby had a sweet tooth a couple nights ago, and I had been wanting to try out these black bean brownies, so I suggested brownies. Made them, and LOVED them, as did he. I was super surprised. He normally doesn't like anything that tastes "healthy". That's how yummy these were. They definitely don't taste or feel like normal brownies, but they're more fudgey. Mmm, and only 115 calories per serving. Holla! 

Click here for the recipe!

In closing, don't give up on brownies, just make better ones. ;)

Something for all of us to remember: