There were no survivors.

I dropped my family and friends off at the airport today. Gladly there were no tears this time, being that we're going to visit them in 3 weeks. It's always easier to say see you later rather than goodbye. We had a great and interesting weekend. When we had picked them up on Friday, we informed them that we had been fighting off a cold, and they informed us that 3 of them were also sick. Great start. 

Well, while the hubs was actually getting over his cold, the cold was just ascending upon me, like a dark cloud waiting to consume my being. I am seriously sick, guys. My nose is sore from blowing so hard and constantly. My throat feels like I swallowed a blender. So not ideal.

To make matters worse, a few of us had constipation issues. It's about to get to some nitty gritty, so feel free to skip to the next paragraph if you don't think you can handle it. Alright, so normally I have this issue to a certain extent since I take Phentermine, but my Teatox has been helping. I haven't had my tea for the past 3 days, though. :( So! After some alcohol, we had the genius idea to use a suppository. Not a terrible idea. But there were 3 of us...and we took it at the same time. Now, I don't know if I mentioned this, but I have 1 bathroom. Yeah. Good times. Since I was hosting, I couldn't keep them from the bathroom, so hubby ended up rushing me to our nearest grocery store. I'm sure he was proud to be my husband that night.

Now, you would think being sick would keep my food and alcohol intake low...well, you would be mistaken. I didn't by any means binge, but I ate way more than I should've. But wow, did I enjoy it! Now the problem is, I semi expected this. I did not however, expect this crazy cold. I thought it would be like everyone else's, light and quick. Nope. So, now I'm not really sure when I can work out. Which sucks big time. But what I can do, is eat clean and healthy again. I'm getting back on the fitness train as soon as I feel up to it. I won't be weighing myself until then. 

I will be leaving you with a picture of my motivation. 

3 new sports bras! Yay!

Semi Impending Doom

So I've been crazy busy the last few days cleaning the house and doing laundry and getting our rooms ready so with that came being really tired and having no time to work out. I hadn't worked out for 2 days and here I was going on 3. (Side note:I've been fighting off a cold for a week.) Well, last night, even after tons of cleaning and laundry and making dinner, I got my butt to work out at 11pm. I always keep that rule in mind: Never go 3 days without working out. Wellll let me tell ya why, even after not working out for 2 days, last night was ROUGH. Here I thought I was doing so well with my thigh/butt muscle gain...ha! I felt it, guys...pretty bad. But! I did it, finished, and felt great after.

Now, here is why there may be impending doom upon me: my family is coming to visit this weekend. My mom, sister, aunt, and 2 friends are flying in this evening and I'm not sure how well I will fare.

Hubby eats to live, he doesn't enjoy it like I do, so I don't get to enjoy my food WITH someone. But my family, we love it, together. Not to mention my mom is the Yoda of cooking. Yeah, I went there.

Now here's the deal, I could take my Phentermine, and I most likely won't over indulge. I just haven't decided if I want to or not. Plus! We already have reservations at the BEST place for brunch. Seriously, I mentioned the name of this restaurant at a party and the first thing someone said, "that bacon, though." Yeah. That bacon. It's got this red pepper honey glaze stickiness and is to die for. Did I mention this place is a buffet? 😔 Impending doom.

I'm not even sure if I'll be able to work out while they're here, either. Hopefully we do something active, like go for a bike ride or go ride horses. I'm really gonna do my best, guys. Really. I'll let you know how it goes. I don't want to lose sight of the big picture. I want to feel great and look how I feel! I can do that. I can.

Onto another subject! Brownies!...oh wait, that's still food. Well I mean, look at the name of my blog. Geez. So, ahem! Brownies! Hubby had a sweet tooth a couple nights ago, and I had been wanting to try out these black bean brownies, so I suggested brownies. Made them, and LOVED them, as did he. I was super surprised. He normally doesn't like anything that tastes "healthy". That's how yummy these were. They definitely don't taste or feel like normal brownies, but they're more fudgey. Mmm, and only 115 calories per serving. Holla! 

Click here for the recipe!

In closing, don't give up on brownies, just make better ones. ;)

Something for all of us to remember:

Skinny Mint Teatox

I started a 28 day teatox from SkinnyMint about 2 weeks ago.  You drink the Morning Boost every morning and the Night Time Cleanse every other night. I really like it so far. The morning tea is a bit more fruity and floral, and the night time is definitely more herbal tasting with a bit of a kick. The night time I've been drinking right before bed and I don't really feel the effects until the next day around 11-12. It's really gentle, no stomach cramps or anything. I really like it since Phentermine constipates me. It is a bit pricey, so I probably won't do another one for a few months. But I'm definitely going to have to up my fiber intake until then. 

I can't really see a huge energy boost in the mornings, but definitely more than I would normally have. What I love most is that I haven't felt bloated AT ALL since drinking it.

For someone looking for something like this, I would recommend it, but I'm sure there are plenty of great teatoxes out there with similar results.

23 Years of Fat

I turned 23 today. I feel my age, which I know is young, except for when I work out. When I work out, I feel like a 93 year old lifelong smoker trying to run up a 90 degree angled hill. I texted my husband when I got to work about this realization. I've never in my life been "thin". I can't believe I've never lived a day in my life as a healthy, fit and in shape person. Even though this is super depressing, it seriously just fueled my determination. 

I've been following the Fit Girls Guide for the past couple weeks which is pretty much clean and healthy eating while working out 6 days a week. I was doing well except for this past weekend when I ate "normally". I gained what I had lost :(  but then lost again :) which is why hubby tells me to stop weighing myself every day.  I can definitely see progress in my muscle gain, especially in my arms. Hubby says he can feel my muscles in my back and sides, too. It's nice not feeling like death EVERY time I workout. Honestly, I can handle working out, it's the food part that is SO incredibly hard for me. I love food. We have a love/hate relationship. Also a very abusive relationship...for both of us. So this is definitely a daily struggle, but not as bad as it could be. I'm taking Phentermine to help with my appetite and cravings. 

So my stats:

Starting weight: 195

Current Weight: 181

Goal Weight: Healthy (around 140 would be nice)

Maybe I'll post pictures someday...when my progress is significantly evident, haha.